15 posts tagged “love”

Metro Manila was submerged in a 6-month worth of rainfall in just one day. It was flooded everywhere. The city was paralyzed. There were confusion, ruins and death tolls. Everyone was caught in Typhoon Ondoy's (Ketsana's) rage, massively in scale or otherwise. I am not going to go to the details as to how much damage this storm has caused. A lot of people already contributed to that.

Anyway, I wanted a perfect date with my boyfriend and we set a meet-up in Cubao at 9 AM. Unfortunately, the flood prevented him from getting there on time. I waited for an hour in our meeting place and I was (pissed off) just about ready to go home when he called and said he's stranded due to the flood. Still, the first part of our date went well. We kept ourselves warm.

Around 9 PM, we're supposed to have dinner in a famous fast food but we were surprised to find out that it's closed. A 24-hour store --- closed. When we looked around, the streets were empty. The usual city full of hustle and bustle was as quiet as the scene in I Am Legend. Only the MRT was operational and a handful of buses. Good thing my MRT ticket is still working. Dada and I went to his office to spend the night together.

Dada bought MiniStop meals for dinner since it's the only store open. I was hoping it would be a good night, but it didn't. Since Jasper (Dada's friend and co-worker) was unable to go to work, Dada had to fill in for him.

I was trying to talk to Dada but as soon as he sat on his station, his aura changed. I was asking him some things and he was stoic, either that or his replies were not related to what I was telling/asking him. It was weird so I got pissed off and proceeded to the conference room to listen to my fave music. He followed me there but, I dunno what happened, he walked out - looking pissed off too. He returned after a couple of minutes, handed his pillows and jacket to me, then left me there.

I was being hard-headed when I told myself "He thinks he's the only one who can act tough? I wasn't this fragile before he came to my life." I stashed my things, left his belongings in the conference room and headed to the exit. I was in front of the glass door when I stopped and turned around. I went to Dada's station and kissed him while I told him "I'm going..." then left their office. He followed me around but I acted like he's not there. I ignored him even though it hurts. I wanted to make him realize how a jerk he was for making me feel that way. I guess he didn't get it.

I rode a cab going to 24/7. When I got there, I met our OM in the elevator. He was smiling and thanked me for making it (even though I informed him and my TL that I would be absent). When I reached the floor, only 15 agents were there. Only my Team Leader and I were present on our team. We were given food as a "Thank you!" for making it despite the weather... and, despite the lack of manpower, the Workforce still added call volumes. The agents said there was a 40-minute avail. That went down to zero as soon as I logged in.

I sent Dada text messages while I was taking in calls.

Me: You are a jerk.
Dada: You went to the conference room without saying anything, and I am the jerk?
Me: I can't talk to you properly when you're in front of a computer.
Dada: I am working. I told you wala na game sa PSP. Ang natira is my RPG. Kaya sabi ko buksan mo na lang PC. Tapos bigla ka na lang nawala. Ayoko na ng away. I am tired and I lack sleep. Ikaw din. Usap na lang pag pareho na malamig ulo. Love u. Text you when I get home.

During my last call, I felt heavy palpitations and numbness in my chest. I went to the clinic during my break and the nurse had that weird look on her face. I thought she was thinking that I may be faking it but I was wrong. She had me rest for 20 minutes then she approached my TL. She observed my pulse rate and she said it's alarmingly increasing by the minute. She handed a letter to my TL and she advised me to be sent home ASAP.

After I logged out from my station, my TL gave me some tasks on how to update our stats since he will be on vacation starting tomorrow. He was curious as to what triggered my tension so I told him what happened.

TL: I trust you so I'm counting on you regarding updating these stats.
Me: I hate you.
TL: Whaaaaaaat?! I say I trust you and you say you hate me?
Me: I hate responsibilities.
*laughter*
TL: I know you can do this.
Me: Okay...
*silence*
TL: You know, you might've been a jerk too.
Me: WHAAAAAAATTTT?!?!?!?
TL: Guys are absorbed by their routine and more often than not, don't want that routine cut off while they're at it. When they're doing a task, they will not stop unless they finish that task. If you disturb them, their train of thought gets busted.
Me: *silent and almost crying*
TL: You see... Guys are not good at guessing. You need to be vocal about what you feel.
Me: Thanks for the advice.

I left the office around 4 AM and had a brief chat with Dada around 6:30 AM when I got home. I was asking him if he wanted to talk over breakfast but he said he ran out of load and was not able to send me his reply. I told him "there's always a next time."

When he got home, he called me up and I can tell that he's still angry. Like always, I said "sorry" to him. I do mean it, but I still want to talk about it when we have more time.

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Event : Dada and Bebe goes Out-of-town
Date : January 30 - February 1, 2009
Venue : 88 Spa and Resort (Laguna)
Photos : [click here]

I filed a week-long vacation leave because Dada and I were supposed to go to Cebu and watch the Sinulog Festival. Unfortunately, that plan didn't push through so I got frustrated and I insisted that we go out-of-town because I don't want my leaves wasted. Thanks to my teammate's suggestion, we found a very nice alternative - 88 Spa and Resort ! ! ! We headed to their Makati office during our day off and made reservations. We paid the package of 3 days and 2 nights and it cost us 5K Php.

We waited in Alabang but we had a hard time looking for an air-conditioned bus. I suggested to Dada that we should've gone to Cubao because that's where the HMT terminal is but he said it's quite far. I got disappointed because one of the bus conductors told us that aircon busses bound to Calamba use the flyover (which is directly above us). It took about half an hour before we finally boarded a bus --- an ordinary HMT bus. Anyway, it can't be helped. I just thought of the nice things that would happen once we're there. Besides, he's the one carrying my stuff. Hehe~

Calamba reminds me of Mamburao (there's a mix of city establishments and a provincial ambiance). I wanted to escape the city's hustle and bustle so I requested Dada that we stay in the resort instead of going out to eat there.

Around 12NN, we reached 88 Spa and the receptionists told us that our reservation was for January 29! OMG! Well, the receptionist in their Makati office who talked to Dada had a hard time with the dates but she noted that it should fall on a FRIDAY. Good thing there were available rooms so we didn't encounter difficulties. We stashed our bags in the room we rented and then had lunch in their restaurant.

They ONLY serve Korean dishes! We don't know anything about their cuisine so it was a good thing that the crew were Filipinos so they gave us an idea about the food. The first we ordered was their Beef Bulgogi (marinated beef with mild sauce). The waiter told us that Koreans mostly want separate servings but Filipinos are okay to share the same viand. Hahaha!

We didn't know that they serve side dishes along with the main course. I like the Egg Kimbap (Korean version of the Tamago Sushi) and the Goguma (sweet potatoes). Dada liked the Marun Panchan (dried sweet and spicy anchovies) and the Yellow Mango Shake.

Other dishes that we ordered during our stay were the Clubhouse sandwiches, Samgyeopsal (grilled pork strips) and the one that made me cry because I couldn't eat it -- the Pork Bulgogi (spicy pork version of the Beef Bulgogi). The food bills for our entire stay amounted to 3.6K Php.

We wandered around the resort and looked at the nice things that we could find. 88 Spa has a total of about 7 major swimming pools plus a few jacuzzi. There were also a lot of cottages and rooms, ranging from the basic to the more extravagant ones. The crew included towels and toiletries in our room which they constantly change everyday. The comforters are very warm and the pillows are very soft. What I didn't like was the bed -- it was huge but I felt really iffy because it was as hard as a rock!

Since it's a Korean-themed resort, most of its patrons are also Koreans. In fact, during our entire stay, I think I only saw about two other Filipino families and about 2-3 Caucasian couples.

We mostly stayed in the hotspring pool near our room because it's only about 27°C and is deep enough to submerge Dada's body. LoL! He said he can't swim but I envy him because he can walk on the 6 ft part of the pool while I have to exert effort in order to stay afloat! @_@ Anyway, I let him carry me while we're there and I just hugged him. Hahaha! Yeah, so much PDA but I enjoyed it. XD

Aside from the swimming pools, 88 Spa also has massage centers, a mini-zoo, a fishing pond, a horseback riding area and a very nice view of the mountain side. We also found several erotic statues that made us laugh so loud!

I was so amazed by the scenery and I am so thankful that I have my trusted CANON P&S with me. I took about a thousand shots but only got 80+ good and not-so-repetitive photos. LoL! XD

On our way back, we stopped by Glorietta and had lunch in Sakura, a Japanese restaurant. After eating, Dada escorted me to the jeepney terminal in Ayala. I went back to the condo to get my workout gear before I rode a bus going to Fairview.

Sigh, 3 days and 2 nights came by quickly but those were really fun and memorable. This is the first time I went out-of-town with Dada for more than a day and I hope there's more to come. Weeeeeeeee~~~~~ ^__^

Sex is a necessity of mankind. Degrees just vary as to why people study, practice and perfect it.

Sex is necessary for the survival of the human race, scientifically speaking. Most people 'make love' to express their feelings to their partners. Some people dive into it to feel acceptance. Some people do it because they are curious and they want to experience 'the tingling stuff'... and there are some who just can't control their sensual urges among other reasons. LoL!

Several weeks ago, I watched a show on cable TV entitled "Katie.com" which is about a girl named Katie Tarbox. She was a victim of an Internet pedophile --- known nowadays as a "cyber predator".

When they did reenactments on the show, I pictured this girl as a part of me. I also have few friends IRL. I saw the Internet (and online games) as a medium to meet new and interesting people from all over the globe (and from all walks of life). I even met my boyfriend online!!! [story : click here]

I broke down when Katie started narrating the horrible things that happened to her inside the hotel room with the man she trusted (and probably loved) so much. That made me realize how lucky I am because Dada (my boyfriend) never took advantage of me.

I am not sure which Sky Cable channel featured Katie.com ... It's either FOXCRIME, NatGeo or Discovery... I forgot! Anyway, after the girl's heart-breaking story, they showed a division of either the government or a local police department (I forgot too, really) whose job is to chat, meet-up then arrest cyber predators. There was a woman who acted as a bait and she disguised herself as a 14-year old boy (yes, b-o-y). She met up with a CP in a famous food joint (I think it was McDonald's). She was dressed so well that the old man didn't even realize that it's just a facade! LoL! The police arrested him after he walked out of the food joint with his 'potential victim'.

That was AWESOME! *two thumbs up*

Dada and I recently watched a show in CS-Origins (a channel on Destiny Cable) and it involved a non-profit organization called Perverted-Justice. Their stint is also to attract cyber predators to chat with their org volunteers (pretending to be teenagers in chatrooms) and hold an eyeball. They will lure the CPs into one of their rented houses then surprise them with interrogations and video footages of the 'potential crime'. They successfully invited about 18 CPs in two days! LoL! Super laugh-trip! I know that their intentions are just, but the execution is quite disturbing.

Anyway . . .

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TIPS ON HOW TO PREVENT CYBER PREDATORS
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1) Protect your Profile.

Any website, not just chatrooms, that features real-time interaction can have both predators and prey... I use the Yahoo Messenger to chat with my friends, colleagues and online buddies.

When I was just a newbie, my YM ID was made PUBLIC in the Yahoo Directory. I also had the habit of putting my Photos on the profile page. That attracted a lot of perverts who kept on buzzing me and asking me to actually MARRY them! Yes, if I am evil enough, I'd even post their YM ID.

Solution: I disabled the public feature in Yahoo so that my online status in their Directory will not be shown to anyone. I also make sure to add on my Contact List only the people I know and can fully trust. The contents on my websites are also filtered depending on the relation type I have with my contacts. The more personal stuff like home address, emails and phone numbers are limited to family, friends, and business contacts..

2) Choose your online buddies carefully.

If you enter a chat room just to make friends, make sure that your conversation doesn't go off-topic. Chat rooms have titles on them and normally, the subject revolves around it. E.g. Chatroom title is "Alternative Rock", obviously, you talk about the music genre so keep your discussions related to it. All else will just follow once you build trust with one another (and it takes time, believe me!). True-bloods will never inject anything not related to their chat room title, most of the time. Only posers do that!

3) Consider everyone you chat with for the first time as BIG FAT LIARS!

Not everyone can afford a webcam. LoL! So, if the person you're chatting with doesn't show his/her face real-time, consider him/her as an old fugly devil. Do not feel too comfortable unless there's another person or a group of people who can testify that he/she is trustworthy.

4) Tell yourself "Cyber Predators exist" before a fateful eyeball.

I am aware of maniacs lurking on the Internet. I know some girls who became pregnant because they had a one-night-stand with the men they met on a chatroom.

I still took my safety into consideration before having an eyeball with Dada. I informed my mom about this. She laughed when I told her that I was meeting my boyfriend for the first time. Hehe~!

It was a risky move to meet-up with him alone but I had my mind set to hugging the man that I would love for the rest of my life... I am so lucky he's not one of those cyber predators!

5) Do not give in to their wishes.

Lots of guys (and possibly some horny bitches) on the Internet will ask you to do things that you might not be comfortable doing. It's okay to say "NO"

I had bad experiences with webcams that's why I promised myself not make mine public ever again. A college batchmate added me to his friends list in YM and we had several nice chit-chat. After a while, he asked me to do erotic poses. Of course, I declined and I immediately blocked his YM ID. I heard from our common friends that he lost his two arms due to an accident -- that is what I call KARMA!

6) If you sense it coming, then act QUICKLY!

I think this applies to all types of harassments, not just those due to CPs.

I've read so many articles and personal blog entries regarding well-endowed women who were sexually abused and/or teenage girls who become victims of statutory rape. They seek JUSTICE!

But honestly, part of the blame goes to them... and I just laugh at their weakness. Why?

If a canon ball is blasted in your direction, will you let it HIT you? NO. You will run away and do your very best EVADE it. Adrenaline rush!

Same goes for harassment. The reason why perverts exist is because women allow themselves to be victims.

If a potential cyber predator asks you to make out with him - in an isolated room, alone - and you know that you'd definitely regret it, would you still go in? Of course - not!

So the truth finally comes out... Your chatmate turns out to be older than what he states on your IM conversation. So he's really not gorgeous. So you find out that he's married and has kids!!!

Once the signs are smacking in your face, it's best to get out of there before anything nasty happens. That's the smartest thing to do!

Prevention is better than cure.

7) Don't be tongue-tied. Report it ASAP!

Okay, so libido rose and the harassment did happen.

So what now?

REPORT IT TO THE AUTHORITIES before he picks another victim like you!
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So there ... *Ehem* these are just my opinion and two cents ... what might be right for me might be sickening for you. That's why it's called "MY OPINION" ... Anyway, thanks for reading.

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References:

Katie Tarbox [link]
Perverted Justice [link]

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It's time for us to pay last respects to Mama and she will be taken to the Manila Chinese Cemetery.

I reached Loyola Memorial around 8:15 AM and they were just about to start the mass. Everyone was dressed semi-casually, with their white shirts matched with black pants. I was wearing my one-and-only white t-shirt and my black lolita skirt. I hugged Dada as if no arguments happened yesterday. I wanted to set my pride aside and focus on Mama's last day with us. We sat beside the priest and I felt really uneasy.

The priest who conducted the mass today was different and we all liked him. Not only that he's nice, his homily was also meaningful. A part of his message was three important things : gratefulness, forgiveness and love. He said that we should set aside the small arguments and learn to forgive one another so we can have a better outlook in life. That struck me really hard. Dada and his cousin, Ate Leslie, also started crying. I hugged Dada but I didn't know what to say. "She is in a better place now." is what came to my mind but that's too cliché so I just kept silent as I wiped his tears. I looked around and noticed that Kuya Ricky, Kuya Sonny, Ate Ella, Ate Lanie (also Dada's cousins) and Ate Christine (wife of Tito Jimboy) were in tears as well. Lorraine and the rest of Mama's grandchildren also started crying. I worried about Tita Star, Dada's mom, too since she's the daughter of Mama and I know she's the most vulnerable person in that room. I was also feeling uneasy but Dada held my right hand, kissed my forehead and said "Peace be with you." I hugged him really tight and I smiled. It's as if all those ill-feelings went away.

Mama's casket was opened and each of them blessed her with Holy Water. Dada began crying again but I stayed in our seat because his family was there naman to comfort him. When he got back, I wiped his tears with the hanky he gave me. It's really weird because I don't know what to do that time.

Dada asked me if I still remember what Mama told me the first time I met her. Tears just fell from my eyes and I wasn't able to control them. Mama told me before to take good care of her grandson and I should give him the same amount of love that she has given. I promised her that I will do just that. It's ironic that when Sempai James (my schoolmate and mentor) died a few years ago, I promised him that I'd take good care of Paolo (my ex-boyfriend) ... but I never got to fulfill that promise. I hope Sempai forgives me ... This time, I want to fulfill my promise to Mama.

After the mass, we went outside the room and ate champorado and stockfish (tuyo). We also played DJ Max 2 and I often lost but it's okay because the important thing is that I saw Dada smiling again.

Around 10AM, we left Loyola Memorial and proceeded to the Manila Chinese Cemetery. A few minutes after we got off the car, the cremation started. All the family members entered the cremation room and some became hysterical, especially Tita Star. she almost fainted so everyone attended to her and calmed her down. Kuya Sonny sat beside me and I saw him crying so I tapped his shoulder and smiled. It's so rare for me to see men crying and that really shows how much they love her.

While we're waiting for the cremation to finish, Jollibee meals were distributed by Mama's grandchildren. Jacinta, Ate Leslie's daughter, gave me one. I waited for Dada so we could eat together. I didn't want to touch my food unless the commotion is finished.

Mama's remains were finally taken to her resting place around 2:30 PM and her ashes were buried beside Lolo Papa, her husband. It's Chinese tradition to burn Joss papers to ensure that the dead will have money in the afterlife so Dada gave me a few pieces and taught me how to roll them up properly. Ate Leslie also gave me four incense sticks and Tita Star taught me how to use them. I was really nervous during the whole process! Colorful talismans also surrounded Mama's coffin but I don't know if those're used to ward off evil spirits or contain them. We were also advised not to go home directly as the bad omen may follow us so Ate Leslie offered an early-dinner in Aristocrat. The traffic was severe in Manila so Dada and I got back in the condo around 8PM already.

********** I granted Dada's wish not to have any photos of Mama shown.

How I Met My Dada ♥ ♥ ♥

This is probably the most unusual, risky but at the same time romantic experience I had in my entire life!

This is how it goes (people who do not know pRO nor MMORPG stuff may not get this, though). . .

During the ßeta days of Philippine Ragnarök Online (pRO), Anki (my boyfriend that time, ex-bf now) and I planned on being the first couple to be wed in-game (using my swordsman and his thief). We invited a lot of Game Masters and our online buddies to attend the ceremony but we still lacked one person -- that was the priest.

We were leveling up in the Prontera (the Capital town) fields when we met an acolyte named Deers. Since he was the first priest-to-be that we approached, he agreed on "blessing" us. He said he researched and practiced what to say on the ceremony. Hahaha! He also requested to have his buddy, Rei (an archer) watch the celebration.

Unfortunately, Anki stopped playing pRO before the wedding because he was petitioned by his parents to get Australian citizenship. I also halted because I lost my job and was pressured to help with my mom's business. Rei and I still talked over the phone, though. His voice reminded me so much of my college friend, Dan, that's why I liked talking to him.

Several months later, Rei convinced me to play pRO again but we left the Chaos server and moved to Iris for a fresh start. I made a priest named - Rain -. That was the first time I created a FS character. After a week, Rei introduced me to A£endar (knight) and ay1ko (swordsman), which he said were his friends. He then told me that the knight was actually the alternate character of Deers.

A£endar and I often party-up during night time and got to talk more. I told him that Anki went abroad and he didn't have the chance to play since foreign IP addresses were blocked from entering pRO servers. He also told me his real name and we often talk on the phone. Because we were getting close, Rei often teased us and he said I might have a crush on him (A£endar). I told him I got scared because his voice was intimidating and the picture that formed in my head was of a tall, fat nerd with thick black-framed eyeglasses. Hahaha!

We were supposed to meet up on the War of Emperium launch in Glorietta but I didn't have enough cellphone credits to tell him where I was. I won in the Senior Division of the fan-art contest while Alodia won the Junior division. She mocked my drawing and told her "friends" that theirs were much better. Well, too bad 'coz I nailed it and they didn't! LoL! Anyway, that's another story. XD

I played pRO and announced to my guild-mates about my victory. Deers (yes, A£endar revived Deers and he is now a full-fledged priest) then sent me a private message telling me that he and his friends were in the event too. He said he saw someone who he thought was me and he just wanted to make sure. The way he described the girl he saw didn't match with my features so what I did was I gave him a link of my Yahoo profile which contained my most recent picture.

We then talked on the phone for several hours. We sometimes ran out of things to say and we would stay quiet for 20 minutes or more - sometimes he sang, sometimes I sighed, sometimes we said "hello" to check if the line's still active. He then confessed his feelings to me "You are out of my league but I think I love you." he said. I said "thanks" and "sorry" because I was not ready to give up my relationship with Anki. He said he was willing to wait for my answer.

I made some thinking the following day. It's been six months since Anki left and only made phone calls once a month. He even greeted me "Happy Anniversary" and I told him "It's not something I can consider 'happy' but it's okay." Before he left, he promised that he'd go back so we could spend our birthdays together ... but when I asked him again when he'd be going home, his reply was "I don't know, depends on when I'd get my Australian citizenship..." That could take another year or two. I am not strong enough to continue a long-distance relationship. My love for him slowly faded together with his promise.

Deers and I talked again. I was very anxious but I really wanted to hear his voice. It was a very long night and we mostly stayed silent. I summoned all my courage to say that I love him. I told him that I've decided to formally break up with Anki because I want to be with him from now on. I know it's odd saying "I love you" to someone I haven't seen IRL but what I feel for him is real.

April 13, 2004 . . . We scheduled our meet-up in the Ayala-MRT station. I was standing in front of Mercury Drug when I spotted a tall guy wearing a white shirt and blue jeans, just like he described what he would be wearing. I didn't have my eyeglasses on but I had a hunch that it was him -- and I was right! He approached me and introduced himself. I was picturing him to have a "nerdy" get-up but it was totally different from what I saw. He's like a playboy / rockstar! He has all the physical qualities that I like in a guy -- tall, chinky eyes and has a deep voice! JACKPOT!!! XD

I gave him a bracelet that I bought from The Bead Shop -- it has a capsule with grain of rice (with our names on it) submerged in a blue liquid. I was lucky at guessing because blue is his favorite color. We spent quality time but I didn't think that he'd be serious with regard to our relationship -- it turns out that he is!

We've been together for FOUR AND A HALF YEARS now (and still going stronger!!!). WOW! It all started because of pRO. I know that I am very lucky to have him -- he has accepted me for who I am, even if I am not pretty. Haha! Relationships that started with chatting or gaming rarely works and I am so happy that ours does. Sure, we still encounter problems and it gets a little bumpy along the way but that doesn't hinder us from loving each other.

Like what's engraved on the personalized key-chain I gave him ...

"If the things that happened to me never happened ... I would never have met you, I would neve have your love and I will never know the true meaning of happiness."™

Ozine Fest 2008

(April 5, 2008) I attended this convention because Faye requested so, because she said we'll be meeting a new Hikarian member. Unfortunately, we did not see her.

I was wearing  my Wrath costume for costripping only but I wasn't able to fix my hair because I was in a hurry. My real hair was showing on most of the photos. Aside from that, I also looked groggy. I didn't have time to put make-up on. 

Some people mistook me for Shana (Shakugan no Shana 2). Hahaha! I honestly dunno this animé so when I saw her photo, I was shocked.

The venue was so small to acommodate all people who attended the event. Most of the time, I was out the Megatrade Hall because it was so congested inside. There were a lot of cosplayers loitering around the 5th floor of SM Megamall. Hahaha!

I met some new and old buddies, thanks to Faye. Some of them thought I am still a teenager. Hiihiii~~

I also won a T-shirt from the Cosplay.Ph booth. It has the "Prepare to get PWNED!" print on it. So cool! Hahahaaaaa!

Thanks to Faye for treating me out for lunch. hehehee~
Thanks to Roy for carrying my stuff and taking some pics.
Thanks to Paul-niichan for letting me stash my stuff in your booth!
Thanks to Bryan for the tips on Chain Of Memories.

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e-Games Dominaton II

(April 6, 2008) When I woke up, my body felt so heavy and I could barely move. It took me 2 hours to get prepared for this event. I planned on going to SMX early so I could get freebies, but my body wouldn't let me. Even putting my socks on became a major pain.

I guess I got sick because of yesterday's event. Megatrade was crowded, it was too hot there and when we got out of the hall, it got too cold. So the changes in temperature might have triggered it. My arms, legs and back were also painful... Maybe it was because I was either crouching or standing up most of the time, and that I was carrying two heavy katana all the time.

Even though I know that I have a fever, I still mustered my strength because it's the launch of CABAL Online (the new MMORPG my boyfriend and I are playing), and that this is the only time we can sign-up for the closed-beta. IT'S NOW OR NEVER!!!

My boyfriend and I came late in SMX. After buying tickets, we immediately signed up and got our CB accounts (hooray!) and then we also signed up for the CABAL-freeplay.

The character that Dada (my boyfriend) tried out was a Force Blader, and the PC he was playing at was tied to the main projector of the CABAL booth. Fort Ruina (one of the in-game maps) has a catchy background music so when Dada entered there, the speakers went booming and a lot of people came in to have a peek at the CABAL-Ph Booth.

We stayed a bit longer and watched the band performance and cosplay. I forgot the name of the girl-band that was there ... "Pacha" was it? They were a bunch of sexy girls in sexy outfits that made each and every guy's head turn. It was really fun watching the reaction of the selected guys on stage when the girls did the lap dance on them. LOL!

I got mad at my boyfriend because I thought he said that he would replace CABAL-Ph with those girls... Whereas it was the other way around pala. He said he'd rather play Cabal. LOL.

After that, my boyfriend and I went to Mall of Asia and watched Semi-Pro (starring Will Ferrell). I was supposed to give him the T-shirt I won yesterday since it was too big for me, but I ended up using it because I was really sweating. XD

I got home around 10:30 PM and immediately went to bed.

Dadaaaaaa!! Thanks for taking care of me. Hahaha! I know, I act like a baby. I'll give you chocolates on our 4th anniversary as payment, don't worry.

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This is Ascedia, my Wizard on the CABAL-US client. I'm also gonna make a wizard in CABAL-Ph. Weeee!!!


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Right now, I still have a fever so I don't think I'd be able to go to work... Gasp! Back to bed!

My Friendster Horoscope only tells about money so I'm not gonna paste it here.

Anyway ...

It's been a rollercoaster ride this month; sometimes I feel happy and sometimes I don't. Overall, I guess it's been okay.

During the first week, Dada (my boyfriend) and I underwent that "unpleasant phase" [link]. I was really worried and I am thankful because I had my friends and buddies who cheered me up that time. It's the first time I cried inside the company premises and whenever I recall it, I feel really embarassed. I'm glad that's over. Hahaha!

On the second week, we had the company Christmas party [link]. It was a tad bit early but I had fun. I got to know people better and I saw Bamboo perform live. He sang one of my all-time fave songs - 214. *sigh*

Dec.10 ... Dada and I met to have a long talk. I thought he would break up with me so I took the advice of my office-buddy - she said I should look my best so I wouldn't feel too bad when that time comes. I felt really happy when Dada hugged me. When I asked him, "Does this mean we're back to normal again?" he said "Yes."

There were a lot more things that happened during the third week ... I got sick for almost five days, but I still had to go to work because I can't be absent during the 6-month long training and probationary period. Yes, I (along with 3 of my teammates and some other agents) was transferred to the DELL account by force by our Operations Manager [link]. I was not able to go with my mom and siblings to fetch dad from NAIA as well because of this.

Dec.22 ... My parents, siblings and I went to MoA during the weekend to do some shopping. I was able to buy a couple of clothes and accessories (which are all either black or white). Oh yesh, I love these colors! I was hoping to have lunch in the TokyoCafe but they don't serve fish so we went to Congo Grille instead.

Dec.23 ... I gave Dada my gift, a grey Skechers™ backpack - with lots of pockets (just as he wanted). I thought he would not accept it because I purchased it from a girlie store, but I'm so glad because he did like my gift. ^_^ We were not able to go shopping for clothes and gifts this week (yet again) because we ran out of time. Sigh, next week we can't go out because our days off are different. Oh well. @_@;

Dec.24 ... Well, I just stayed home with my family. There was a bit of a commotion because my Dad got upset when he found out that we don't have any "handa" for the Noche Buena. I told him I can't stay up late as well because I have work tomorrow. We're really not used to preparing stuff during Christmas time and it's always just a regular day for me and my siblings... but since Dad's here, he was expecting more - which he did not get. So as not to make him more disappointed, I told him that I'd be treating them all out for dinner tomorrow. ^_^;

Golly, so many things happened this month!

Despite all the bad stuff that happened, I'M STILL ALIVE!!! Hahaha!

MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!!!

*originally posted as a comment on one of my online buddies' blog entries, trying really hard to change my Engalog to pure English .. hahaha!*

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REGARDING PEOPLE-MOCKING-OTHER-PEOPLE:

it's everywhere ... scrutinizing someone or something that does not appeal to us is part of being human.

im sure, all of us already said "THAT'S SO UGLY!" or "EEEWWW!" or anything like that at least ONCE.

there will always be people and things that we will not like and we tend to criticize them. if you say that you have never ridiculed anyone or anything in your entire life, then you're not human. you must be a god!

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REGARDING FRIENDSHIP:

if a person chooses to be with a particular group just because they're all gorgeous and/or rich, then that person is not really after friendship. that person merely wants to fit in, get attention and be popular. common interests, acceptance and care are the foundations of a true friendship.

we cant please everyone. people have different tastes and there will always be conflicts ... so, people select their friends ... hot chicks and blokes ; cheaps and cheesy ; gorgeous men for beautiful women ; the rich and the famous ; nerds with geeks ; cosplayers and animé otakus (hehehe!) ... even so, the reason why they form a particular group that's different from others is because they share the same interests, they feel that they belong and they are happy with each others' company.

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REGARDING RELATIONSHIPS :

i still believe that love, communication and understanding are what keep relationships alive. having a partner who is rich+famous+gorgeous is a big bonus, but it should never be a must. although it's part of human nature to select someone who can give him / her the best things life can offer. that depends on how a person defines "the best things in life" ... ^_^

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REGARDING SOCIAL STATUS :

all people are born equal. cliché but that's the truth. we all didnt have clothes and are covered in blood when we appeared in this world. however, we are brought up by our families in different ways. some are well-fed while some are not. some kids are satisfied playing "patintero" while some demand Nintendo Wii's. some are lucky with life, some are unfortunate. some are content, some are never satisfied.

life is never fair so it's up to us on how we can cope up with it.

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    I went to the office with my fists clenched and my eyebrows crinkled ... I dropped my bag on my cubicle and then I looked at my officemate who's right across me ... I asked "What is it with men?! Why are you so louring?!" I then headed to to the locker area and took my headset and reading materials...I returned to my station and pulled up my tools. He placed his hands on the cubicle divider, laughed at me and he said he doesn't even know the meaning of that word.

    I was holding back my tears as I explained to my officemates why I feel so bad today... I told them that it's crazy... I'm jaundiced... not with a person but rather to an electronic device that can process data and grant access to the world wide web, otherwise known as a computer. The lady sitting beside me told me that I shouldn't make a fuss out of an inanimate object and I should let people enjoy the things they have.

    Well, I AM!

    But the thing is, I really hate it when I don't get full attention when I need it. I get really cranky when the person I am talking to is not listening to me and is doing something else albeit I am speaking to him/her directly. Tapos siya pa may gana bigyan ako ng cold shoulder kapag sinabi ko yung hinanakit ko?!

     AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHHHH!!!!

    I've tried being nice again even though I got hurt ... but I can't stand the coldness. That's just too much for me to bear!

    I've had enough ...